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got back my report book . didnt expect to get 3rd for the whole level. nvm, since nobody really read my blog, im gonna praise myself nyahahahahaha pandainye kau aqilah. HAHAHA perasan. really gonna miss my friends. 2C , here i come ^.^ edy, ameer, fasiha, we`re gonna be awesome kids. (Y)(Y) haziq and mulya? err not sure about tht. haha. wellwellwell, i told my mum about my results and she was happy. okay nasibbb. holidays i go tuition :) i loike. ibu , i tk sbr. faster faster plan can. erghh and i want to buy my books fast. biar boleh revise during holidays. yeah i cant wait for my 2nd year! this build up my confidence to do even more better! alamak baik ah kau qilah . semua stress put aside. boys aside, friendship put aside. now friendship rilekss je. no problem . good. im not being egoistic already :b though sometimes i am when i have nth else to do and i`ll stare at the screen or stare at the wall. i even told diyanah i want to delete facebook just because of jealousy. this is a fact, people actually wants attention in facebook. idk ah, thts for me. my true feelings. i only feel this way when im in no mood or etcetc. but usually i post stuff on fcbk for fun and not wanting attention bcos thts what i feel and if people like it then thats their problem. you know, those feeling where u want people to like ur photos or posts and feeling jealous of other people having people`s attention. yeah, cannot resist. human nature la pls. ok skip. now im bck to formspring. do ask questionsssss. k ah i dun mind if i have no questions i will entertain myself. i dun mind. hahaha! and my tagboard is officially dead. bcos not alot of people know my blog link. lazy want to put relink page laaa. grrr. keep the tags rolling.... NOT. i want to be a bookworm again. rindu ah zaman dulu jadi geek2. best you know. at tht point of my life, i hate guys. i didnt mix with any guys except my classmates. but now? omg i change . *roll eyes* well everybody change. worser or better? dunno, you decide for urself. 24 november is the day which is my happy 1 monthsary. HAHA! 1 month onlyy. aiming to wait until 1 year. on the other hand, cant wait for some phototaking at chinese garden. amira! plan fast! huhu tc guys . have fun and enjoy your holidays. i will change my blog song soon. im getting bored of tht song -_-feeling mcm , " shawty`s like a melody in my head blablablabla ~ " k crap. bai. :)

i will miss tmr. the last day of school. it feels like the first day of school :\ i will miss my form teacher, mr koh. you are the most awesome-st teacher ever! i wish u will teach our class again! i love how you handle our jokes , how u handle our craps , how you advise our class to be better and such. woah , so much memories tht i cant even count. sec 2 will be hell lot tougher. especially mths. gaaaaaaa, streaming streaming ! holidays must get tuition already. mum, set time and date . i`ll be there :D seriously i want to study hard . boys put aside. BOOOO go die lah boys. hehehe , lets talk about school. had normal lessons. slackk. all nvr bring books, dun bother also. ^.^ the best part is after recessss. oh so called "discuss" with edy , ameer and fasiha. haziq we put aside :bb he extra , mat kentalzzxz lah pls. only when he is with his friends, he will show-off , act big , step cool. but when he`s alone, omg only god knows okay :) dun state here la, later his face drop. muahahaha. i love my "world" especially fasiha and edy! omg i even told edy and ameer i like them before. all secrets are out babe. i even like KENNY AND LARKHAN?! HAHHAHAHAHA. oh yeah, during and after recess, saw idris and jimmy kissing each other! AT THEIR CHEEKS! omg so cuteeee. i want to take photo but alah cannot take out hp :( jimmy kiss idris like seriously so sweeeet. HAHAHAH! ok skipskip. then geography lesson whole period we talk about ghost stories. (Y)(Y) edy ajak us go take 172 at night bcos tht bus drive past the cemetery.eiww edy stoppit seh, cari nahas bodoh. so art lesson, watched Ip Man, semua concentrate. best sangat eh? yeah i think its fun too ^.^ but stop halfway alamak swaysway -_- then school dismissal. rabiah went to my house since she nothing to do so im currently blogging . i want to delete facebook. i so jealous ugrrhhfrghdfgh. when i have nth to do i`ll think of you-no-need-to-know. STRESS! tmr last day of school. have fun people. should be a sad and enjoyable moment , yeah? byebye (L)

24 October 2010 (L) :D happy single, qil ^.^ though i may look happy outside, seriously feel like crying but wait, who wants to cry for a guy? YUCKSSS. i rather waste my tears for my friends :) seriously, aku rasa aku sweet hari ini. hohohohoho. hi everyone tmr is my religious class and i want to laugh until i forget the world. hehehehe. Anisah, Irdina , get ready. :B alah, haikel, dtg lah okay? wa mau kcau sampai lu shy. HAHAHAHAH! pfft. its fun you know i loike. ade orang kan, attached tau. tapi tk beritahu sama members. wahhh gerek pe . fuhh. -__- and you know something , i miss someone. WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?! your n levels are over :( come back on9. i miss being close to you. *heartbroken* hahaha, i rather wait for you than being hurt over and over again. or if not for you, i`ll wait for someone else . rhibi! :( why u no stay near jvss? HAIYYYYY. okay bye D;

WE ARE NOT CLOSE ANYMORE . u understand?
NOT CLOSE, ANYMORE . :(

got all my results alreadyy. sucksucksuck. did quite bad la for almost all of them. :(

eng paper 2 - 75/100 (actually 76 then got this one girl spoiled my day -.-)
eng paper 1 - 63/100 (combine together)
maths paper 1 and 2 - 54/100 (combine together) SUCKKKKKKK LIKE FISHCAKE.
science paper 2 - 65.5/100 (nii maintain aje , good)
art - 68/100 (not bad la)
hmt paper 1 - 68/90
hmt paper 2 - 69/110
literature - 56/90
home econs - 2 fail 1 pass. (got three theory test papers) altogether idk how much so idc.
music - idk.
geography - 31/50 (sickening)

u see ah, like this very hard to see a1 or a2 on my report book :( im gonna cry, so badly. my mum say she will let me have tuition. YAY OR WHAT. i rather have tuition than doing those assessment books yknow. now i have 1 problem to solve. i need to save my relationship FAST as possible. boyfie is confuse. well, dia confuse, beh aku apa?! im more confuse nowwww . omg dun ask for it . i want to last long okay baby. shiiiit la cos of my fren, he`s not confident in our relationship. bodoh punya kawan, satu hari aku nak tahu siapa kau. if only boyfie remember who`s tht person, i will kill tht friend of mine . i got a feeling its a boy. pls la dun fitnah anyhow la :(( i dun trust anyone already. go die suckasssssss.

i get it, being in a relationship is hard. u have to understand each other`s party so that problems will not happen. when im attached, all i see is happy singles and when im single, i will see happy couples. 0.0 grrrrrrr. kk this not a good start to say hi to you people. -.- hello :) miss me? exams are over and im bored. i want to go out im waiting for sitii to finish school! i miss shikenchickenkfcmcdonaldpizzahut and my other friendssssssss. :( we will survive our sec school together okay guys? i know how u feel, im feeling it too. like i said, 2010 is the worst year ever with so many problems. even i myself fought with kakfee just because of my ego. lucky im bck together with her . fuhh. my blog is getting quieter. good. so tht i can blog more and let out all my feelings. uhuh. okay bye. i love everyone (how i wish). and i love H (L)

tomorrow will be my last paper :) GOOD RIGHT I KNOW. uhuh ! wish me luck , people. i`ve been studying very hard you know ^^ lol world. currently listening to songs and i`ve just finished studying science awwww im so hardworking . studies come first maah :D then can love here love there huhu okay lame shittozxzx. to boy number 1, sorry if i hurt your feelings but i have no feelings for you seriously i swear so i better be honest with you. thts the best way.. to boy number 2, thnks for the wait. i appreciate you aLOT. it shows how concern u are towards me. :') just keep waiting, i`ll promise i`ll be with you. oh yah i met siti today and i laugh so much . i miss her. she`s surviving, so am i ! okay bestfriend, we`ll go through these challenges together. okay byebye peoplessss.

hi people i had my geography paper today and i`ve realised that i already wasted 4 or 3 marks in tht paper. OMG , this is terribly bad news. how can i aim 35 marks maaan? i want to get A2 or A1 for my geo. :( but i know its faaaaaar impossible since i failed my recent test . i could have passed if i get another mark :( stupid me! i label one of the diagram wrongly. 1 MARK COST ALOT, fyi. i think i get b4. plssss. at least. okay i must not stress myself up. literature is on the way. haaaah, i seriously dunno what to study. and its a close-book test! which means, i cannot refer to the totto-chan textbook. i must really study now. i`ve been slacking for my EOY. i did not even bother to do my home econ test properly. im like giving chances to my other classmate so that they can beat me and top the class. nooooooooooo, this must not happen. must study aqilah, must study. must get top 10. must show mother how good u are. understand? :\ im scared. bye.

If you only know the real reason, u wouldnt nag at me like that. Doesnt mean i do those silly things, im not respecting you. You are my mother , how can i not respect you? And the most disturbing part of your naggings were the times when ur relating me to jurongville. You said its not a good skool but just wait until i get my degree and i`ll show u what im made of. Cos i know, anything is possible and your lucky that you have a daughter who still wants to work hard when she herself knows that jurongville has a lower rank than other schools. I will not let you snatch my dream away just like that. We go for our own goals and what we `re talented for. No use if u force me to join a school or course or any activities that im not good off. Please mum, dun compare me with my other siblings. its sucks. What if your own mum, which is my grandmother, compares u with ur other siblings? U dun like it right? Unfair huh? Only then, you can feel the way i feel now. No matter what, I`ll always love you. And right at this moment, i`ve just found out today is my mother`s birthday and i`ve totally forgotten about it. im too stress with school. :( maaan, im sucha bad daughter. i cant forgive myself right now. im in a too complicated status. B , i need you , i hate you so much . guess what... i`ll have to blog again later. i need to go now. so disheartened! tsk.

hi how are you? im fine. actually, i kinda take bck my word. i really cant stop using the comp. im too addicted oh no am i gonna die? the ans is , no. tmr i will concentrate on my studies and if i ever break this promise im gonna kill myself okay actually not really kill myself but i will haunt myself down until im satisfied. lol sounds wrong but wtv im just talking crap cos im tired and i wanna go to sleep. i guess my blog and tumblr are gonna be famous soon since i told facebook what my links were. well idc already hahahaha btw, i love my soulmate i know all of you do but i just wanna say i love her omg i sound like a lesbian . she dun like lesbians and whenever i hold her hand she dont like it . i feel so sad but i dun mind . i`ll do anything just to make her happy . hi soulmate i know ur not reading this but i want to spend the whole time with you. please do not neglect me and dont avoid me i am ur classmate i want a bestfriend in my secondary life. i want a real bestfriend not like bestfriends in primary times. i look sick talking to myself like this i`d rather talk about the incident which happened just now. i was otw to tokoh malim where my sister is currently working. she told me to buy for her food so i came to her place and i bumped onto syeirkhan and idris . they are indeed very extra. they followed me around and waited for me until i finished buying food for my sister. and then, the worst part came. herman was there. blerghhh , what a coincidence . i know he lives somewhere near syeirkhan . and blablablabla, so i went home. thats the full story. i know its not even a story but wtheck now look at me deep in my eye, do i look like i care? NO. haha shit. im kinda impressed with my english now because im typing my post fluently . im very strange . when i really concentrate on my english , this is what will happen to me . and when i get crazy over stuffs, i mixed up my language and im trying my best not to get crazy. please help me. i beg you. ok i dun wan to sound like a beggar but i just want to inform you people that i`ve updated my tumblr . lol, no link. in total, i have 154 pages in my tumblr right now and a total of 1400+ photos. im proud. i really am. i can see the difference on how my life was last time and the situation i`m going through now. i guess i will stop here cause i think i will talk nonsensical stuff soon.. btw, I DID GREAT ON PAPER 1! but i suck on paper 2 -.-' oh hell no, is this bad or good news? k bye, (my phone is not beeping and imma sad kid)

*the song is too noisy and loud . please lower down ur volume. sorry for any inconvenience but i will change the song soon. k bout the soulmate part, i hold hands with her because of certain reasons not because im really a lesbian okay! sometimes i accidentally hold her hand because im scared or watsoever but i really forgot why i was holding her hand . erghhhhh.