If you only know the real reason, u wouldnt nag at me like that. Doesnt mean i do those silly things, im not respecting you. You are my mother , how can i not respect you? And the most disturbing part of your naggings were the times when ur relating me to jurongville. You said its not a good skool but just wait until i get my degree and i`ll show u what im made of. Cos i know, anything is possible and your lucky that you have a daughter who still wants to work hard when she herself knows that jurongville has a lower rank than other schools. I will not let you snatch my dream away just like that. We go for our own goals and what we `re talented for. No use if u force me to join a school or course or any activities that im not good off. Please mum, dun compare me with my other siblings. its sucks. What if your own mum, which is my grandmother, compares u with ur other siblings? U dun like it right? Unfair huh? Only then, you can feel the way i feel now. No matter what, I`ll always love you. And right at this moment, i`ve just found out today is my mother`s birthday and i`ve totally forgotten about it. im too stress with school. :( maaan, im sucha bad daughter. i cant forgive myself right now. im in a too complicated status. B , i need you , i hate you so much . guess what... i`ll have to blog again later. i need to go now. so disheartened! tsk.